Some times I see myself sitting in a darkened room, quiet and yet so peaceful – and yet my mind is so active, so noisy, so industrial.
Why? – why cant life be easy?
I have talked to my God, I have asked for his guidance, but perhaps this is the challenge that he has set me. To see how I deal with things – to watch and listen – this is my task.
People who read my posts may think that I have so much anger – so much venom, but I never wanted this. All my life I have faced abandonment and rejection – let down so many times – but I suppose that that is life, and we all have to deal with the cards that we are dealt.
I just want a life that many consider normal – but what is normal? – my head hurts – I cannot keep feeling this hurt….this darkened room – I wish that I could see the path that I must take.